headbursts

some scary question revolving around my head and mosquito-cooing in my ears, mostly coming from my family are : when will you marry ? when will you settle ? . i shout out loud in my head, aren't you the ones who taught us patience ? ok, fine, in your time , people used to have a couple children by my age , but wat the heck !!! i'm 25-30 yrs past that time. you have that picture fixed in ur mind, 'to see my son married , to see my daughter-in-law , to see my grandchildren ', and you think that'll make u really happy ???... being so blinded, it would be hard for you to see the 'situation'... at this point of time , even the thought of marriage makes me consider running away into Himalayas.
           nowadays careers are prolonged. in this field , you gotta give one, 10 yrs at least. everything you talk seems to be pointing in that direction of 'my happiness' only !!! aren't you the ones who taught me, life isn't all about being happy, there are ups n downs coming n going n u got to hold on. then wats with flipping sore need of yours to see me happy ??? i don't know if this is wat happens at ur age. i beg you to let go of me. 
         ok, i haven't proven you yet in a 100% sure way .but  will it be 100% till i die.. u expect a superman out of me.. or the public opinions weighs more than my immature ones. i will never win. for that hell-bent-ness, i can either give-way n suicide into a marriage or unfortunately i keep ignoring bluntly , go on with my business. which in the course may hurt you(and add to the oodles of guilt i already have), but you know if i try to think , my HEADBURSTS...