Hermit

I take a look at myself and wonder. How I have lived like a sadhu out of Himalayas ( Himalaya also happens to be my fav medicine n aesthetic products brand ). That too in the middle of crowd. I observed people around me, thats how my time passed, years passed. Mostly anyone that crossed my eyes or sometimes through their corners. But I stood still ( not on one leg and certainly not with an arm-length of beard ) and refused to budge. I pondered over , mostly kept all the judgments to myself or offered few euphemistic words to some. Off course there were speculations, remarks, taunts or some honestly tried to infuse some life n sanity into my brain. With my sincere apologies to them, creed is one thing that turns stones to gods. Not that I didn't feel. My way of feeling was playing those little experiments with your mind. Now the word experiment might sound too artificial but no, remember first I tried to feel what u'd feel. Turbulence is wat even I went through, trying to hold the surface still. And then I grew wise to a hermit ( I learned , lil show off doesn't hurt but keep my bones strong ).

headbursts

some scary question revolving around my head and mosquito-cooing in my ears, mostly coming from my family are : when will you marry ? when will you settle ? . i shout out loud in my head, aren't you the ones who taught us patience ? ok, fine, in your time , people used to have a couple children by my age , but wat the heck !!! i'm 25-30 yrs past that time. you have that picture fixed in ur mind, 'to see my son married , to see my daughter-in-law , to see my grandchildren ', and you think that'll make u really happy ???... being so blinded, it would be hard for you to see the 'situation'... at this point of time , even the thought of marriage makes me consider running away into Himalayas.
           nowadays careers are prolonged. in this field , you gotta give one, 10 yrs at least. everything you talk seems to be pointing in that direction of 'my happiness' only !!! aren't you the ones who taught me, life isn't all about being happy, there are ups n downs coming n going n u got to hold on. then wats with flipping sore need of yours to see me happy ??? i don't know if this is wat happens at ur age. i beg you to let go of me. 
         ok, i haven't proven you yet in a 100% sure way .but  will it be 100% till i die.. u expect a superman out of me.. or the public opinions weighs more than my immature ones. i will never win. for that hell-bent-ness, i can either give-way n suicide into a marriage or unfortunately i keep ignoring bluntly , go on with my business. which in the course may hurt you(and add to the oodles of guilt i already have), but you know if i try to think , my HEADBURSTS...