The capitalist

Capitalism and communism have had a bitter-sweet romance over many centuries so far. No one can say how long it will continue. These two radical ideas, emerged as an era of "dynasty rule" was coming to an end and as the Wave of science and systematic research in every field  continually challenged the supernatural.
  I find something in sync with these two ideas in our own mind. Sometimes i think, capitalism , cause we deserve what we've earned, we've worked hard for it. So it won't be wrong if i say i want to rip its benefits later. But it tends to make u blunt, insensitive. U realize ur a greed machine by the time its late. Just look at america.
   While communism sounds more human. But over time we get tired of just being good, tend to succumb to the temptations. We don't find a sadist challenge in it, to which , we yield our best.
     This internal conflict is getting messy. It's difficult to take sides these days. We keep swinging from one to other n back.
    There's this concept called 'Matsya Nyaya' , law of fishes. A bigger fish eats smaller fish. Also called the law of the jungle still holds true , for most of part we are very much human - an animal.
   

Female chauvinist

I remember the incidence that occurred 2yrs back. My collegue called me female chauvinistic. I didn't even know what that meant. I made a weird face and ignored her.
I looked up the dictionary, being partial /biased. May be she was right. I was a pakka member of 'forever alone' / lukkha group. So all my friends always had all sorts of negative stories to tell. Most of it could be drama but I took it for real. Girls shaped up as villains in my mind.
I myself was a fattu to go up to a girl n strike a conversation. I failed to understand the one's in my family too, they got on my nerves all time, idk why.
Over time they were pictured as egotistical, exploiting and selfish, grandiose. Thoughts could turn into beliefs which get integrated in your nature. So, they were highly ignored and kept out of my life. Not that I went on a crusade or something. I did have respect for them. It was kind of passive aggression.
But I came to realize, rather late, I was wrong. All types could be found in both sexes. For I didn't see doesn't mean a positive side exists. May be I won't wake up one fine morning as a changed person. I wish to tell that colleague of mine, she was right.