Sunday, 5 April 2020

Karz

#karz
Mushkil se is jagah pahucha hu,
Mana k naqaab roomani bhi hote h..
Pr aksar dekhe h sunsaan chehre iske niche..
Ret m fase pair aur ankhon p patti,
Ab yehi sach lagta h, naqaab se bhari cheez koi nhi.. is duniya m..

Wednesday, 12 June 2013

zoom-in

  and to zoom out of things. this ability defines the flexibility of mind. like ur body, mind too becomes less flexible with age. its bcoz of adaptive shortening. 
           when u stay in a particular posture for long every day, the muscles which stay flexed undergo shortening. its called adaptive shortening. e.g. students, due to long hours of sitting, get shortening of shoulders and hamstrings. 
            torticollis (tilted neck ) some people have is also a form of adaptive shortening. i have heard its related to being passionate, naive and honest. i dont know.
              i lost my phone again, this time in a train. period. lets proceed. 
            so ive moved from one coastal capital on west coast to other on the east coast. and ive had a good practise of playing dumb charades since last few days. atmosphere is same humid here. 
             im adjusting well to the food here. except ftft ive swelled a little 2 inches more, and my body has started smelling a mix of coconut and curd. thank god they dont use coconut oil to cook and use coconut only in chutneys , unlike kerala where, i wondered if their staple food was rice or coconut ?!
             public trasport is less efficient. frequency of buses is low. and autos dont have meters installed only.
                   people are honest and hardworking, modest. except some grumpy old ones who misdirected me a couple of times. they seemed curt or may be they were riddled by " what is the need for these outsiders should come here. why dont they stay at their place only. they should just go away ?! ". but young ones i met were co-operative and had a welcome expression on their face.
              a couple of times ,at restaurants and bus stands, humblest of talks made my head turn, as i mistook them for arguments. 70 to 80 % girls wore salwar-kameez in the class i went. 
              one thing i do, when im on the road, is avoid reading shop-boards coz the 'jalebi script' keeps making me hungry....
           

p.s. - i started to write something else and then went random.
        anyway will post more explorations in next one. 

Sunday, 12 May 2013

Whole act of letting go.......

(this post is not born from my intelligent mind, but is a rearrangement of random stuff I read online ).

Letting go is never easy. Especially with things you are attached to.  With things that make a part of you.
Why this certain attachment ? It's analogous to survival instincts in animals. Like they mark their territory and protect it. We try our max to hold on to things we are attached to.
But when our mind reasons out that we aren't our worth, it starts to develop  fatal attractions that will hasten our own doom. Thats opposite of the survival instinct.
There's a kill code in our own program. And it should work normally.
How do we cheat this code ?
By creating false attachments. Contrivances.
Our attachments are our assets. Act of protecting our assets will make us happy.
What are saints ? People against this cheating . People trying to prevent activation of this code in first place.
How to reverse this cheating process ?
Let go.
Let go of all the false attachments. Then this may start the process of your doom but remember what saints said.
If you are ready to bow, accept and apologize. And lucky enough that the severed true attachments are rekindled. Your ship may still sail.

Sunday, 24 March 2013

Currency de-valuation

Call it latest fad . Almost mandatory. From persons to nations. (should look away after each fullstop). Very base of morality is reforming. And so are we, to be in the thick of things.
Lest it has went in the direction we expected , question arises, wether the positivity was really pseudo.
Can it be the way out, when u have a mashup of things in front of you. For the time being.
Only mettle can turn it around. Behold the lost ground.

P.S. - That was a poem. Haha

Monday, 10 December 2012

The capitalist

Capitalism and communism have had a bitter-sweet romance over many centuries so far. No one can say how long it will continue. These two radical ideas, emerged as an era of "dynasty rule" was coming to an end and as the Wave of science and systematic research in every field  continually challenged the supernatural.
  I find something in sync with these two ideas in our own mind. Sometimes i think, capitalism , cause we deserve what we've earned, we've worked hard for it. So it won't be wrong if i say i want to rip its benefits later. But it tends to make u blunt, insensitive. U realize ur a greed machine by the time its late. Just look at america.
   While communism sounds more human. But over time we get tired of just being good, tend to succumb to the temptations. We don't find a sadist challenge in it, to which , we yield our best.
     This internal conflict is getting messy. It's difficult to take sides these days. We keep swinging from one to other n back.
    There's this concept called 'Matsya Nyaya' , law of fishes. A bigger fish eats smaller fish. Also called the law of the jungle still holds true , for most of part we are very much human - an animal.
   

Saturday, 1 December 2012

Female chauvinist

I remember the incidence that occurred 2yrs back. My collegue called me female chauvinistic. I didn't even know what that meant. I made a weird face and ignored her.
I looked up the dictionary, being partial /biased. May be she was right. I was a pakka member of 'forever alone' / lukkha group. So all my friends always had all sorts of negative stories to tell. Most of it could be drama but I took it for real. Girls shaped up as villains in my mind.
I myself was a fattu to go up to a girl n strike a conversation. I failed to understand the one's in my family too, they got on my nerves all time, idk why.
Over time they were pictured as egotistical, exploiting and selfish, grandiose. Thoughts could turn into beliefs which get integrated in your nature. So, they were highly ignored and kept out of my life. Not that I went on a crusade or something. I did have respect for them. It was kind of passive aggression.
But I came to realize, rather late, I was wrong. All types could be found in both sexes. For I didn't see doesn't mean a positive side exists. May be I won't wake up one fine morning as a changed person. I wish to tell that colleague of mine, she was right.

Wednesday, 7 November 2012

Skyfall !!!

I loved this latest bond bravado. Well I am a bond fan. The macho man image he has. But this one wasn't a typical bond movie. Best ever ,I could say.
      It was a fight between two agents, both were made to suffer for a greater cause, country, by their chief M. But one had the heart to accept it. Other just turned into a sore loser.
   Bond starts to realize he's losing his edge , still he took his chances ( well he made it through at each and every chance, obviously ). He has love for the old fashion but realizes, its not going to stand amongst the modern lifestyles. " its a waste of a view" when he says , looking over a terrace in London.
      M on other hand is fighting with decision of keeping MI6 going. She says, the perpetrator is one of us and we can never be sure, so this service is needed. May be she knows there's a devil inside all of us, including her, she has seen it, felt its strength. She might have kept it supressed with constant efforts. But some get tired.
And when the devil keeps on winning, gaining strength, it turns to Evil. Evil like agent Silva, unstoppable.
      Javier Bardem is an amazing actor. Impeccably badass villain. Also had liked him in No Country for Old Men.
      In the end skyfall is set on fire. I wonder if it's symbolic of death of 'old fashion'.